I realize how sorrowful I looked, yet I promise it’s happiness. Last Tuesday was one of the happiest days of my life…today I drove to work to give my notice, and quickly burst into tears.
These women and men (including staff at juvenile hall) have been the best co-workers and colleagues I’ve ever had. I know there will be other facilities and clinics, but finding individuals like those I have had the honor to meet and work with is quite a different story.
And so…quickly I must begin to organize the Fort Worth wedding, which will take place of July 28. Lists, names, details and things. HOW on EARTH am I to do this? My wedding 17 years ago was so no-frills…simple location in Dana Point, CA, simple dress, flowers from the farmers market, and a tiny wedding (12 people total). Now? He has a family the size of Atlanta and I have my California people. I didn’t think anyone from CA would want to come…it would seem that is not quite accurate.
And then, there’s Maggie and Ethan. This morning’s memory was of her, looking at me, ever so sweetly, before I dropped her off at school…. My precious Maggie. Yet, she won’t be moving. I thought she might change her mind, but it seems her life is here. As for Ethan, I’m not sure. If the question were asked today, I believe he’d stay because of his girlfriend. I’ve always raised my children to be independent, self-reliant humans. I just assumed that I’d have a little more time.
I’ve long been a brash advocate about curiosity of the unknown and leaning into the discomfort. It is time for me to look at my kids as capable young adults who are guiding their own future. A terrific aspect about technology is that school moves are no longer as tedious and difficult as they once were, and that nothing but death is certain. My kids have options now; they can move to Texas or stay here. I must also remember: “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.”
Pictures: I’ve got to remember to keep my eye on the prize; These cuttings were on willow limbs, on their way to a burn pile. “Every new beginning…”
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